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Beach Break Cafe

Breakfast is my favorite meal on the weekends. I don't usually eat anything exciting during the week since I eat when I get to work, but on Saturdays, I like to try and have breakfast or brunch with friends if possible.

Our recent adventures took us to Beach Break Cafe. It was my first time there and when I saw that they had waffle on the menu, I immediately decided that I wanted to try it. It wasn't mind blowing, but I was satisfied. It had a really tasty butter, which was saying something because I usually don't like butter on my waffles or even pancakes.

My friend R ordered the eggs benedict with hash. As you could see in the photo, it was drowning in hollandaise sauce. If the sauce was on the side, she would have liked it better. On the other hand, I went ahead and finished the Canadian bacon for her when she decided she wasn't going to eat the rest of the food.

My friend A ordered the corned beef hash. It was actually delicious. I liked that it wasn't burnt just to be crispy. The meat tasted really great. Also, as you could see, we ordered sides of bacon. Out of the three dishes, we all agreed that the corned beef hash was our favorite. Oh, and yes, we all shared all of our foods. We asked for smaller plates so we can have sides of everything we ordered.

Overall, the food was great, but I don't think I'd rave about it to my other friends like I do with my favorite brunch place. I wouldn't mind coming back, though. The food were delicious enough.

Beach Break Cafe
1802 South Coast Hwy
Oceanside CA 92054
(760) 439-6355

What's your favorite breakfast food?

x Ayre

Fear of Falling Apart

We all have fears, some more than others. 

One thing I found that inadvertently helped with my mood swings was birth control. It not only regulated Mother Nature, but it also regulated my mind. Can you imagine my fear whenever I would consider going off of the pill?

The fear was overwhelming that I would simply run away from it. I was afraid of my own mind. I was afraid it would eat me up and I'd be stuck. 

New year, new possibilities, right? 

As part of my new year's resolutions, I wanted to meditate 300 days in 2017, and so far so good. So good, in fact, that it'd given me the strength to truly consider stopping an unnecessary medication. I have heard of side effects after going off of the pill, such as hormonal imbalance and depression. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't still afraid. Heck, I wrote this post because I wanted an outlet.

However, after about five days of not taking the placebo pills, my mind continued to be stable, whereas a year or so ago, it would have already spiraled down an ugly path after day two.

So, once again, I found hope in something I thought was hopeless. Whoever you are reading this, you have no idea how incredible this realization felt. To finally be able to have hope that my mind wouldn't crash and burn, it was monumental. 

"Gosh, you are such a drama queen."

Say what you want, but to someone who'd lived in fear of herself for so long, this progress was important to me. If you're reading this and you're struggling, know that there's hope, but you have to also help yourself. For me, I found that meditation was effective. It may not be for you, but please don't give up in finding what works, because once you find it, you'd be as emotional as I felt writing this post. It would be a good kind of emotion, though. I promise.

x Ayre

January Loves

January was a good month! I had a few favorites so I thought I'd share them with you.

First things first was the Glade Cashmere Woods candle. I loved the warm ambience it created and the scent wasn't overpowering. It was great for a cozy night with the fairy lights on and a great book.

My lips were rescued from the cold by Lush Honey Trap lip balm. I'd been so in love with this ever since I purchased it. I loved the smell and the fact that it had been the most hydrating lip balm I'd ever used.

Who knew kale could be a satisfying product for skincare? I loved the fresh smell of the Pacifica Kale Detox Deep Cleaning face wash and pretty much any other kale product line from Pacifica. 

My hair had been loving the Shea Moisture Peace Rose Oil Complex Shampoo and Conditioner. The shampoo literally made my hair feel silky as I was washing it. The conditioner had a strange rose scent, but I got used to it eventually.

My favorite book was Wolf Moon by Lisa Kessler. I received an advanced readers copy and I devoured it. It was book 7 of the Moon series, and I'd honestly been reading the series out of order, but no big deal.

My favorite audio book series had been Vampire Academy series by Richelle Mead. I never thought I'd be into audio books until I listened to this. Vampire Academy had always been my all-time favorite series and listening to the books just rekindled that love.

Finally, my favorite tv show had been Blindspot. I loved the action and conflict in the show. Also, there was a guy that went from being murderous to having his memory erased, so he became quite subdued and mellow. The actor was great and kind of hot as well ;) If you were interested, the actor's name was Luke Mitchell.

Let me know in the comments what you loved in January!

x Ayre

Breakfast, Coffee, and Desserts

Food = Happiness.

I love Snooze Eatery in Del Mar. I'd been trying to introduce as many people as I could to this place when possible. Their food always gave me joy and I would continue to come back for more!

Last weekend, my friends and I decided to head to Snooze and treat ourselves before we went on another adventure. I split a plate of eggs benedict with one of my friends, in which I ordered the classic Ham Benedict and she ordered the Chile Verde Benny. My other friend ordered the Egg White Frittata for the first time. We all really enjoyed our heavenly food.

For dessert--because it's an essential order--we ordered half O.M.G. French Toast and half French Toast Neat. My female friend preferred O.M.G. French Toast, while her son preferred French Toast Neat. I liked both, depending on the mood. The first one was creamy and very indulgent, while the neat one was more on the dry, less guilty side, unless you add the syrup, of course. 

As per tradition, we went in search of a coffee shop so that my friend can get her caffeine fix. We ended up at Better Buzz, which was quite a hipster cafe. I liked the vibe, actually. My friend tried them at a farmer's market last year so she wanted to try the actual cafe. Unfortunately, the coffee's quality fell short. 

Last but not least, we found ourselves at MiaBella Yogurt & Desserts. I was searching for places to visit in San Diego, and somehow, Google decided to give me dining results, and this place was one of the "must-visit" destinations. I loved the creaminess of their self-serve desserts, but my favorite part was the toppings. They had chopped almonds! It may sound silly, but I love almonds! Sorry I wasn't able to take a photo of the dessert itself; I was too busy enjoying it.

Overall, it was a great day last Saturday. I look forward to more days like it in 2017!

x Ayre

Hope Heals

We all have felt hopeless.

In the past month or so, I'd explained to my colleagues and friends that I usually find comfort in pain. Whenever I was upset, I turned to violent movies or dark TV shows to give me a comforting hug. Pain was all I'd ever known. Love certainly was something foreign to me along with all the "nice" things that people experienced in the world.

However, the other day, I discovered something other than pain...


It sounds a bit strange that I'm only now discovering hope, but something clicked in my head, and I realized that I never really knew hope until just a few days ago.

I decided to watch something happy instead of sad because I was content inside thanks to my constant meditation. I was watching montage videos of two fictional characters that I love and the actors that played them in a movie adaptation. The love and respect of the actors for each other on and off screen inspired something in me. I was happy to watch them. I felt elated to see such admiration in their eyes and in the words they spoke.

After watching the videos, I realized how light my heart was. I felt at peace...and that's when I realized that I was able to seek comfort from happy moments. I didn't always have to turn to pain because pain only caused more pain and suffering. Happiness, on the other hand, lifts up the spirit. Drowning myself in joy surely couldn't be a bad thing. 

So, I'm resolved to seek joy from my surroundings and to finally accept that it's okay for me to be happy. I can smile and not feel like I'm only pretending.

There is hope that I will continue to be happy and only cry with tears of joy. There is hope that I will finally rid myself of the darkness that constantly surrounds me, always waiting to consume me. 

I am hopeful that I will be okay. :)

x Ayre