MARCH 7, 2014
Can you believe it's already March?! Where have I been?! Apparently, somewhere far that I can't blog... Oh yes, my head!
Well, let's see.... My mood swings got worse and I was miserable. I finally decided that I needed to see someone about it. I found a male psychologist and I've seen him twice so far. He hasn't given me a diagnosis, but he said it probably would be along the lines of anxiety disorder. Wow, can you believe it? Who knew?!
I have been doing yoga, though I'm on a 2-week break... I have yet to sign up for an entire month of yoga. I'm so excited for that! I think I would be able to start on March 16. I can't wait! I actually look forward to my yoga classes, though I still would not go alone. I also am taking HOT yoga! I used to dislike the idea. I mean, I still dislike the idea of sweating...BUT, the feeling I get afterwards? The relaxed feeling, the clean feeling that I've detoxed, etc... It's amazing.
Let me know in the comments if you're into hot yoga and what do you like about it? :)
MARCH 7, 2014
JANUARY 20, 2013
Once again, I'm slacking on this blog. I just haven't had that much to say, I guess. Nor do I have anything interesting happen to me. Anyway, I want to take this time to update you on what's been going on.
Lately, I've been incredibly frustrated with my work. My employment status is still unstable and the place I'm working now is not working out for me. But... I have no choice but to tough it out because it's paying the bills right now... Last Friday, I was incredibly stressed and ended up crying my eyes out while I eat my lunch in my car. I felt a little better... And then we had the desk move. I got a new and bigger desk, which pacified me a little. What really did it for me was the fact that our area was right outside the manager's office. And we have walls dividing us, so sliding the office chair to have an unproductive chat is virtually impossible without the manager noticing. That sure made my day!
I also re-watched Kandee's videos during lunch, which inspired the tears. She's just so amazing and very motivating. If you don't know who she is, check out the two videos that lightened my mood :)
On a more positive note, my new landlady is like family to me. She's also very inspiring and she is pushing me to better my life - health, job, mental stamina, etc.
She's given me a goal to pursue. She revamped my resume and have given me the task of applying constantly to different companies that match my skills at least twice a week. She also inspired me to pursue classes that will improve my skills. I'm currently looking into enrolling to a web design class so that I can learn xHTML and CSS among other things. I'm excited and anxious at the same time. I'm just now waiting for admission from the community college I applied to.
I'm also eating healthier and cooking more. I'm only slightly healthier than before, but I think it's progress. My landlady also is making me eat one fruit a day. I'm doing good on my first day so far :) I'm cooking more and surprisingly coming up with yummy foods. Today, I made chicken that was supposed to be Thai Chicken Saute. I substituted and eliminated some ingredients, but my chicken turned out yummy. It was probably not Thai flavor, but I loved it anyway.
So that's about it for now. What have YOU been up to? How's your New Year's Resolution going for you? I think I'm good for now. I hope I can keep on going and making progress! Next on my list: Yoga and losing weight.
JANUARY 8, 2014
I am 8 days late, but it is better late than never. How was everyone's new year? What did you do? Do you have any new year's resolutions?
1. LOSE WEIGHT - lots of weight - like 30 pounds... I gained 20 more on top of the 10 I wanted to get rid of originally
2. Pursue acting more proactively
3. Learn more new things
Blah blah blah... The rest is the typical resolution that everyone has and then forgets after a few weeks.
I moved to a new place. I haven't been here a week yet, but so far, my sleeping pattern is weird. I'm still sleeping at the same time as I did before, and getting up the same time. However, I did notice that I would sleep between 9-10pm and then wake up at 11pm. I would go back to sleep and then wake up between 3-4am. Consistently, this has happened and I'm worried there's something wrong with me. I wonder if my mind or body is troubled. I don't know, so I'm just going to try to start exercising. I really need to lose the weight I put on during my 3-month-long unemployment.
So anyway, what's been going on with you all? Let's talk in the comments!
DECEMBER 5, 2013
Obviously, there's a problem with saying things on Facebook. "You are so insensitive. Why don't you think before you act for once?" Ah, the age old judgment. Let's talk about intentions.
There's times like today when I'm AWARE of the world and it's made me quite upset. Upset enough to want to send a message out there in hopes of providing a public service. Unfortunately, not everyone will appreciate it. Forget the fact that I may have been in a similar situation in my past. Forget relativity, we're all supposed to be unique and completely different from one another, right?
Fuck sympathy because no one really understands. Is that it? That's how we're supposed to see the world?
Well damn, I'm more fucked up than I thought. Excuse me for wanting people to stop hurting each other. Excuse me for wishing such issues didn't exist, because then so many people won't be dead today. Excuse me for trying to send a message that you're not alone. As miserable as you might feel, imagine how I feel.
I'm disconnected from my family - by choice or not, I don't know anymore. I'm mostly in solitude because let's face it, no one understands me. No one wants to tolerate such a weird individual. Who wants to be around someone not considered normal, possibly even sick? Yeah, that's what I thought.
So, no, you're not the only one. And if you've never been in such a situation, who gave you the right to judge? Who gave you the fucking right to think you can open your mouth and preach to me? You're so noble, everyone is beneath you? No thanks. I'd rather be alone than be in your "mighty" presence.
And people wonder why I prefer to live in a bubble and choose ignorance?
Life is too short to spend it having to tolerate such vile human beings. Take your poison somewhere else because I'm not buying.
Title: One Sweet Christmas
Author: Darlene Fredette
Publisher: Escape Publishing - Harlequin Enterprises
Release Date: December 1, 2013
Buy Link: Amazon
It’s going to take more than a few pieces of chocolate to fill this Scrooge’s heart with Christmas cheer. Luckily Candice Cane has a whole shop full...
Candice Cane is not proud of the way she acted after her last encounter with Jackson Frost. Sure revenge was fun, but it’s left Jackson standing, angry and looking for answers, on the welcome mat in her chocolate shop. Now he’s after some revenge of his own.
Jackson returned to his small hometown for one reason and one reason only...so he’s not sure how he’s ended up in a Santa suit in the middle of a chocolate shop, at the behest of its beautiful owner, instead of high-tailing it back to the city as fast as he can.
Jackson wants nothing to do with his small town past, but Candice shows him what he didn’t even know he’d been missing. Can a bit of Christmas magic heal old wounds and offer up a future neither saw coming?
NOVEMBER 29, 2013
I am moving after the new year, so I started boxing my books this week. If you don't know, I haven't read at least 90% of the print books I own. Some I bought only because they were popular and I wanted to have a collection. However, now that I need to consolidate, I decided that they need a new home. Hence, here I am coming to you with a book sale. I hope you will buy some! Shipping cost will vary and will be calculated once you tell me which book(s) you would like to buy. Payments will be accepted through PayPal. If you don't have PayPal, you can send me a gift card if you'd like.
I've pasted Amazon links if you'd like to read the summaries for each book.
Pocketbook: $2.00 (or best offer)
Check out special deals if the books are in a series or from the same author.
Email ariannecruz07 at gmail.com to purchase. U.S. only. (Sorry, I can't afford to ship internationally)
NOVEMBER 29, 2013
Black Friday Crazy!!!
Are you going to be shopping? Where are you buying from? I thought of buying from Amazon and they had such great deals, but I just got stressed out trying to stretch my gift card dollars. So, I decided to just forget it and wait for the Christmas deals (hopefully there will be deals)...
Today, I want to share with you some deals and giveaways I've found online. Enjoy!!
(I'll add to the list if I find more after this is posted)
D E A L S
White Collar Season 2 and 3!
30% off any ONE book offered by Amazon
Canon EOS Rebel T3i
G I V E A W A Y S
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Born Pretty Store
Happy Haul-idays by Samarius Swatches
Kindle Fire HDX / $229 Amazon GC / $229 PayPal Cash