dealing with loss,

Life: Missing Someone You've Lost

12:00:00 AM Arianne 5 Comments

When people would talk about losing someone, I couldn't relate because I haven't lost anyone close to me. During a recent Twitter chat, I realized that I was lying to myself. I did lose someone, and I was a bit sad that I had almost forgotten about this person.

When I was 10 years old, I lost my nanny. She was a second mother to me. We had an agreement that she wasn't going to leave me until I was 15 years old. Growing up, I thought that she lied to me and left early. The last time I saw her was when she was having intense stomach aches and had to be taken to the hospital. The rest was hearsay. I was told she had to be put on life support, and eventually her daughter decided it was time to let her go. 

As you can probably tell, I did not get the chance to say goodbye. When I came to the United States, I sometimes wished she came with me. I was in a depressed state all throughout high school and I thought to myself, "if she was here right now, I wouldn't feel this way." 

Growing up, my nanny was my protector. She protected me from all the bullies and she took care of me like I was her own daughter. Thinking of her now, I wish that she was still with me so that I can share with her my accomplishments. 

My best friend in the Philippines had recently lost her younger brother. I don't think I had ever met him, but he seemed like a good man. Their relationship was something I envy (yes, present tense), and I hope that my friend is finding ways to cope during this difficult time.

Anyway, I recently watched Ingrid's video about dealing with loss. I thought it would be nice to share it with you.

Please feel free to share your stories in the comments.


  1. Thank you for posting this

  2. Thank you so much for posting this. So emotional and deep.

    Amanda ||

  3. I'm sorry to hear your loss. It must have been hard when you were so close.

    Corinne x

    1. I didn't shed a tear for her when she passed because I didn't know her worth until I grew up a little bit older. Now I wish I had one last chance with her.