LIFE | Five Things That Make Me Different
I was driving to work one morning when this idea came to me. It started out as a negative idea, but I was able to turn it around and make it into something positive. Being different isn't a bad thing. Our differences make us unique and quite the treasure if people make the effort to discover them.
1. I have a fear of addiction. I refuse to take any medication for my anxiety, even when I'm so overwhelmed sometimes. I would rather call a hotline than take any medication -- unless of course it's natural like melatonin or suntheanine.
2. Smoke makes me hypoventilate. A friend asked me recently what I do for fun since I don't have any vices. My simple answer was: I color. He was so taken aback that he paused for a few seconds. I explained to him that I grew up as a second-hand smoker, but ever since I immigrated to the United States, I got used to less pollution in the air. As a result, I hypoventilate (meaning I stop breathing) when I'm around smoke of any kind. I have a silly thought that if I don't breathe, maybe the smoke won't enter my system at all.
3. I find comfort in misery. This is a reoccurring theme in my therapy sessions. I have a very good awareness of my actions and my surroundings, but that doesn't mean I'm always in control of myself. I find that no matter how miserable I am, I still seem to find a way to keep myself in that state. This is something I really want to work on. Misery is in my comfort zone, and this year, I want to step out of that and find happiness instead.
4. I need constant silence when I'm alone, but I can't stand silence when I'm around people. This sounds so weird, even as I read it. When I'm alone in my own room, whether I'm blogging, working, or just wanting to spend time with myself to relax, I need complete and absolute silence. Any noise will set me over the edge. On the other hand, I cannot stand it when there's a lull in conversation when I am around people. I have an urge to always fill the silence, which is why I talk...A LOT.
5. I prefer receiving practical gifts. During the holidays when people buy presents, I tend to gravitate towards the practical gifts because they're what I want to receive as well. I totally would appreciate it if people bought me socks, a skincare product that I love, or even just a simple gift card. I'm not about the extravagant gifts -- I buy those for myself.
Let me know in the comments one thing that makes YOU different from everyone else.