LIFE | Learning to Love Myself
One night, I was looking at my blog's homepage (as one does), and I noticed my new header for 2016. I'm sure you've noticed it by now, but if you didn't, there it is. The letter "E" is slightly off-kilter. When I created the new header, I just thought it looked interesting at the time. However, this one night, when I was looking at it, I came up with the idea for this post.
The off-balance "E" is a symbol.
For the year of 2016, I've decided that it will be the year that I will put more effort into loving myself more. The letter "E" is a symbol that I'm imperfect and I'm completely okay with that. I could write a few pages of my flaws that most people probably don't even know about. This year, I want to accept those flaws and start telling myself that I wouldn't be the unique person that I am now if it weren't for those flaws.
Yes, I might not have a posse of friends or I might not be the most outgoing person that you'll ever meet. You know what? That's totally alright with me. This year I want to accept more things than ever before.
I want to accept:
- my body - it's not perfect, but I will go to the gym to feel healthier. If I lose weight in the process and my body shape changes, then I would look at it as a bonus, not a goal. The goal is to be healthy, not to be skinny.
- my bad days - my anxious mind would always try to make one bad day exponentially worse, but I will work even harder to focus on the positive and to always CHOOSE HAPPINESS (this is courtesy of Louise's book Life with a Sprinkle of Glitter - cheeky little plug there).
- my beliefs - I always let people dictate my decisions and I'm always looking for other's assurances. This year, I want to accept my decisions for what they are. If I make a mistake, I will own up to it and deal with it accordingly in a mature way. I will learn to forgive myself. I will also learn to simplify life by embracing the simple decisions available to me.
- other people's flaws - this is the hardest one, but I will try harder to accept that there is no one in this world that is exactly like me, and therefore, we will have differences and some of them might annoy me. My goal is to accept those annoying things and focus on the beauty of their soul instead of the ugly picture that my anxious mind would probably paint on my behalf.
This year I want to accept me for me. It's about time.